This weekend there was a regional agility championship held in my city. I knew a few people running; a friend, some former shelter staff/volunteers, former instructors, former classmates, and even a shelter dog who I worked with briefly years ago.
After my friend finished running her dog, as I pulled out of the parking lot, a bunch of things hit me all at once. How awful it is to explain to people that you can't play the game that you love because your dog can't leave your home. How everyone I know is progressing so well and I'm stranded behind them by myself. How, even if I get a puppy, it will still be years before we actually get to play (and then what if the new puppy can't play either? Then what?) How unfair it is that I have this great, fun, smart little dog and no one else gets to see how amazing and smart she is.
I'm just throwing myself a pity party, but I had to get it out.